Biography of Ahmad Nikfarman Motlagh
In the Name Of you, I’m lost without you
I am Ahmad Nikfarman Motlagh. I was born on March 2nd, 1979. My father died two months before my birth. After infancy, my mother married and my grandparents undertook the responsibility of my guardianship. They didn’t own a house, so one of my uncles who had a good financial situation provided them with a house and also I grew-up under the supervision of them at my uncle’s house.
I was always with duality in my life and recognizing the fact that I am a poor boy in contrast to my uncle who is so rich was very difficult for me as a child .Others also from relatives to friends and acquaintances told me that you are like his children for him that this belief made me think that I am rich too and not worried about my future, but I didn’t know that they just sympathized with me.
When I was 12 that I passed the fifth grade of elementary school, I realized that all these speeches have been compliments and pity. At that time, I got out of school and found myself on labor market, but unfortunately I was not able to put aside the personal weaknesses and still could not accept my inability and poverty. For this, I spent my first salary which was sixty thousand Rials in the first three days, I did not understand the meaning of poverty, and from the fear that wouldn’t see me poor I was always indebted to others. I always worked two times more than other workers just to wear suitable clothes but I wasn’t successful.
At the age of fifteen my father’s heritage divided between me and my siblings and my share was twelve million Rials. At that time I was more experienced and I found that I have no one but God and I have to keep concentrate more. I saved money and started to buy and sell goods and after three years my money reached to thirty million Rials. When I was an eighteen-year-old freshman my uncle told me: “you are not less than an ash, even ashes make nest for themselves, and how couldn’t you provide a house for yourselves?” At that time I was too arrogant and I told him for the next twenty days I’ll leave your house. By the grace of God, after the age of 18 I continued to be independent.
At the age of 19 when my properties were about fifty million Rials I met a girl and I prepared about 100 million Rials dowry for her sister whom intended to marry and I couldn’t flat down my back under the pressure of debt and currencies. At the end, I bankrupted because of the high pressure so I sold everything I had and they sent me to prison for 21 days for one count of Czech amounted to 11570000 Rials and my uncle paid the money after 21 days and they released me.
After released I shamed to return to labor market and asked my mother to lend me some money to buy a Peykan to taxi out and halve the profit. She accepted my request and after 6 months doing taxi out I found that I did not build for this job. I told her to sell the car to buy merchants from Kish and Astara and sell them and halve the profit. I refund the money to my mother and came back to my previous job.
By the grace of God my situation recovered very soon and I forgot again that I am a poor man and I have to attempt in order to develop and this issue cause me marry at the age of 21. For as much as I did not learn contentment in my life, I worked but I was just marking and always worrying about 30th of each month and the rents I had to pay for the store and warehouses. This issue caused me to work more than normal people for years in order to develop. By the grace of God I developed but unfortunately I divorced when I was 24 while having a one and half year old son and I missed my motivation for development. Six months from my separation passed, and I had to pay my son’s babysitter high costs and also my ex-wife payment of dowry; I found myself in a bad situation again. I remember a midnight that I wrote with a marker on the wall:”Iman, my son, I will be alive for you to live, not just be alive.” This writing gave me the motivation to arise again and attempt more, because I felt I was just alive and never lived during my life.
By the grace of God, this attitude give me inspiration and motivation and I developed very fast but man is a great forgetful and when he finds the time and life’s sores, he forgets every pains and suffering he had tolerated. I found myself and I saw how honest and devoted friends are next to me and I need nothing until I have them.
Again unconsciously, I spent all I had for my honest and devoted friends and again I came back to life in hard situation but I didn’t disappoint from God’s mercy and I tried and tried while repeating this sentence: “O God, I appreciate the fact that you taught me to know that I know nothing.” I believe in my ignorance. I recognized my lord as my beloved, Ahmad Nikfarman Motlagh as my comrade and money the best and unfortunately the most dirty friend. I developed day to day and became successful and successful.
I learnt where the sun is like a molecule, megalomania is not reasonable. I learnt money do not bring happiness but of course poverty brings misery, injustice wrangles and fool person destroys himself when he wants to eradicate it, but wise people want to eradicate injustice in themselves and attempt for it.
And now the only factor that causes an infinite happiness in me is nothing except that I have believed in God and my Lord is the meaning of love, and if no one understands the value and meaning of love, he knows worth of it very well and understands its meaning.